Just a few hours left in 2003! I've spent quite a bit of time going over the events in the past year, and maybe tomorrow I'll post some of them. And maybe tomorrow I'll also post my New Years resolutions! I'm not a big fan of resolutions, exactly, but I think that the end of the year is a good time to take a good critical look at your life.
I'm still not certain what I'll be doing tonight at midnight! The heat in my house is not working...in fact, the air conditioner has been kicking on at 5:00 every morning. And what with my job and rehearsals, the only time the repairman could meet me at my house is tonight. "But it's New Year's Eve," I told him. "I don't have plans," he gruffly mumbled.
Can I admit something foolish? One of the secret desires of my life is to go to a big New Year's Eve party at a restaurant or hotel ballroom or something. You know, one where I could wear a really beautiful dress and sit at a beautiful table and drink champagne and eat tiny appetizers and splendid desserts. And the best thing of all, there would be dancing. I would twirl on the dance floor to a live band and be so incredibly happy. And at midnight everyone would count down and cheer and throw streamers, and if you're with someone you love it would be the most romantic moment of the entire year.
I've dreamed about that kind of night ever since I was little. I don't know, maybe I've seen "When Harry Met Sally" too many times. But it just seems like it would be amazing. It's funny, all of my friends have been to parties like that and when I ask them they say, "Eh, you know. Same old, same old." I can't imagine anything like that ever getting old. We had talked about doing it last year, but nobody seemed much interested in it.
I don't know if I'll ever have the opportunity to be at a big, beautiful restaurant on New Year's Eve. It won't be this year, anyway. But if you have such plans, please go with a good spirit and don't take the evening for granted. And if you're spending the evening surrounded by a group of friends that love you and that you love, please don't take that for granted, either.
My Christmas cards this year said, "Wherever you are this season, be with all your heart." I agree...for the most part. Because tonight I may be spending my evening watching my heater get repaired...but in my mind, I'll be twirling on a beautiful dance floor, surrounded by cheer and love.